May 13, 2014

  • CMB Fail

    Another CMB fail. We had been texting fine for about a week. When discussions arose going beyond texting, it all went awry, perhaps thankfully so. It gave a glimpse into her psyche, thought process, and rash decision making, all in a single swift text...

    Me: Perhaps we can chat on the phone one evening.

    Her: Or how about coffee? Talking to someone you've never met is like talking to a telemarketer to me

    Me: But if we feel there's no chemistry we can save each other the trip. Nothing to lose from a phone call. Let's try first and see how it goes. Are you free now?

    Her: That's pretty pessimistic of you. Since your time is super precious, ill save you the hassle. Bye. Good luck

    Me: Best of luck to you too! =)

    When I was younger, my insecure self would have jumped at the chance to prove her wrong, try to persuade her I'm worthy, that we should try, and I would acquiesce. Older and wiser, I know better than to try to persuade someone who has made up their mind. I have learned not to chase after those uninterested in me. The ideal would be mutual interest. One should not need to persuade their counterpart to be attracted to them. Thus, this relationship was already doomed for failure, and my response, genuine good will for her future, and closure for myself.

    My pragmatic self spoke clearly. Ironically, her negative, emotional perspective of my realistic take on the situation illustrated to me several things about her: rash, impulsive, negative, emotional. She ended it quickly before it even began. I can only imagine how it would be like to be in a relationship with her. Rather than being resentful, I'm grateful. She inherently did me the favor of telling me this was not a good match. Self-deluded or realistic? I think the latter :) Another bullet dodged... and thus spoke Zarathustra, the search continues.